Sometimes I wonder why I keep doing what I do. Both with the blog and with my weight loss. No one is reading the blog, I am very aware of that. And I guess that's okay, I blog for myself more than anything else. I should be saying the same about Weight Watchers. I am doing it for myself. But I'm doing a crappy job of both the blog and WW lately.
My weight stays the same, no progress. I'm still in that same stupid pattern of gaining over the weekend and spending Monday through Thursday losing it. I skip meetings for the most laughable reasons. I am not tracking. I might get to the treadmill once a week. If I exercise two days in a row, it's a miracle. So how can I expect to see any results? With that attitude, I'm shocked that my weight just doesn't keep going up and up.
I'll be posting today on the other blog, about new reasons for me to get my junk together and get back on track. You can check it out, I won't bore you with double the details here. Very soon I will have more time to dedicate myself to the program. I will have no excuses to NOT stay on track. If I fail, there is no one else here to blame.
I know what I have to do. I know what it takes. I've done it before. I've had success. I have really got to dig deep and find that motivation and find that dedication and remind myself that I'm worth it! I will be 50 next year, I can't continue on this current path.
I want to get off my prescription medications. I want to wear normal size clothes. I want to have enough energy to get through my day. I want to be able to sleep better at night. I want to have my knees and back stop hurting. I want a healthier life!